Attention: AI did not touch this message, it truly came from my heart and my feelings.

I did not write for reactions, inputs or comfort. I wanted to be truly vulnerable and share my deepest feelings and fears.

2025 was one of my most challenging year of my life. AND one of the most magical.

I resigned. Not just from a workplace. I resigned from employment.

I felt deep inside that my true purpose and mission is calling. Did I have signs? I don’t know. I might. I felt that it’s time to play in a bigger league.

I felt that I want to own my life and my responsibility to create something future positive. Which outlasts me.

I knew in my early 20’s that I’ll become a coach. HOW?

A coach, Csaba Novák (I know you sense this message with the angels up there) changed my life. — I will honour our friendship for life!

After loosing both of my parents within 6 months, I was at my lowest.  He pointed a gentle light to my true values what I could not see. Especially then.

I knew that immediately this is why I’m here. To serve others. To change lives. To encourage. To inspire.

Then I ‘accepted’ the patterns I got from home.

Not good enough… Less than… Not ready… Not for you… Too soon.

So I spent almost 20 years beyond that thick layer of lies and childhood patterns.

I met fascinating people. I have seen magical minds. I have met true passion and enthusiasm. So it was not meaningless.

Last year I felt it does not serve me any longer.

Was it scary to resign, living in a different county with high expenses and 3 kids? HELL YES. It scared the sh@t out of me. BUT something scared me more. Staying where I was.

Then the financial runway became much shorter as planned.

There were days when only 200 euros was on the account. AND the biggest surprise?

I HAVE NEVER FELT SO HAPPY, FREE AND CONNECTED WITH MY KIDS THAN BEFORE!

Did I do things I regret because I was scared? YES I did.

I was trying to show up the way I thought people wanted to see me.

To impress.

Immediately successful.

No flaws.

No stumbling.

No issues.

Not scared.

I even enhanced the years of my coaching business years on LinkedIn to skip being vulnerable and to look more profound. I was scared going the long BUT true way.

I always looked for perfect. That’s the pattern I got from my dad. Perfect is the only way to go.

Perfectionism became my default and constant background noise.

I have been seeking who I want to serve but I did not feel aligned and TRUE to myself.

Until I played a game with my 7-year old daughter. 1 QUESTION – 1 ANSWER.

She asked me first:

“ What is the single most important thing for you on this entire world daddy? ”

This hit me in my bones. 3 minutes of silence. My mind approached to answer hundreds of ways. Then my heart and my body responded:

“ You and your brother and sister. I want to become a role model for you. Who models you everything you need to become the greatest version of you as an adult.”

Then I got tears in my eyes as it hit me even harder:

“ I did not do much so far about this! “

I was hiding behind success. BUT WHAT IS REAL SUCCESS?

While I was thinking that I pass the success model for them by default, I realized that this is the pattern they have seen:

Daddy leaves before we wake up. Daddy comes home when we are tired. Daddy often overreacts. Daddy is not truly present during weekends.

I totally missed that the future they will create, will be auto-translated from what I considered success — at that time I had no clue what success means to me.

Because they never listen to a word I say BUT they watch every move I make.

They do not copy and DOING part of me.

They copy the BEING part of me.

My mission starts where my outdated patterns end.

My mission is that our kids — the future generation — will build their future from their best version.

This cannot be done without passing on the right model and patterns.

If my mission resonates with you and something moved inside, send me a message and let’s see how our conversation can serve the future generation.